SMELL THE FLOWERS WHILE YOU CAN

by EX. By V.

supported by
/
  • Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.

     name your price

     

1.
2.
3.
02:12
4.
03:21
5.
6.
05:54
7.
8.

about

the title of this album and the reading during the intro track are both borrowed from the pages of Close to the Knives: A Memoir of Disintegration by David Wojnarowicz

credits

released April 28, 2016

recorded and engineered by Matt Molchany @ Shards in Bethlehem PA in during early April 2016

album art and design by Genesis Martinez-Crespo

ex. by v. is
Ksenya Leah Basarab: vocals / lyrics & prose / bass guitar
Ron Basarab: percussion

*** click on the individual tracks for lyrics to each song

*** we aim to keep everything as accessible as possible, so if you aren't able to pay anything please download this album for free, if you would like to pay the suggested price/scale is 1.00 $ to 7.00 $, we greatly appreciate your support and thank you for listening

tags

license

all rights reserved

feeds

feeds for this album, this artist

about

EX. By V. Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

contact / help

Contact EX. By V.

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: intro. / mothering
mothering:

mother the pain, mother these words, mother the loss, mother the storm

mother the pain, mother the storm
Track Name: not a time for distance
the clouds are collapsing, its three this morning, leave your books behind you, cry all the way home

quiet this room, you're beyond this now

tonight I can't be very far from you / it's here, it's real, there's no fucking way

the thieving of time, give in to the process, makes this precious, hold hands then let go

quiet this room, you're beyond this now

tonight I can't be very far from you / it's here, it's real, there's no fucking way
Track Name: eras
eras have begun, some have ended, the evenings aged

see us through, body says no, see us through this now

see us through this, see us through this now

eras will begin today
Track Name: on a sunday
maybe she thinks / let her live / her life / just let her go
stop reminding her / of all that time / let her go
maybe she thinks let her live her life, stop reminding her of the time she wasted

its a risky road and the letters will travel just write home to the body tonight

in on sunday / retrograde blood flow / crying on a sunday / clocks are frozen

fought so hard and I'll just fight on, then that history will be hushed

in on a sunday / storms and the downpours / crying on a sunday / worried women fight on

so we kissed / underneath that bridge / held me there / the heart on
the wall / valves and open hands / embrace this bond / the wait is over

the heart on that wall the chambers and the open hands, we did what we could and now the wait is over

its a risky road and the letters will travel just write home to the body tonight

in on a sunday / language of that day / crying on a sunday / body as a battleground

fought so hard and I'll just fight on, then that history will be hushed

in on a sunday / storms and the downpours / crying on a sunday / worried women fight on

tears fall /// clouds break /// at the hospital /// here we go
Track Name: anesthesia nightmares
you hold on, here goes nothing

lie back

no, there's no other way
no, the fear and the pain
no, there's no other way
no, the fear and the pain

/// waiting my whole life, such a long, long night ///

lie back

no, there's no other way
no, the fear and the pain
no, there's no other way
no, the fear and the pain

eyes open, pulling on me / wounded and withdrawn
so sick and miserable / wounded and shaken
ribs are poking through my skin / pick up this body
stumbling now, weight is lost / pick up this body
Track Name: almost
lying alone and naked / head on for head on / for a break in the barrier

now you're alone, because someone left, you lost the night, say goodnight or don't

everyone said / his heart exploded / sat at his piano / matters of closeness and care

look away, the time is almost gone, you dropped right there, you were a warrior

you almost made it

almost

you almost made it
Track Name: real life test
see her through the windows / shadows against the wall / no one is here / the pleas of mothers unseen

candlelight climbs the walls / cut the thighs and forget / that no one
is near / fall away from here

/// have the heart to see this through, in silent rooms, sat so (still) ///

never needed to be about how you look or pass as what for who? always about everything it took to get here, to just be here now, what it took and how you try to continue to survive. there was no efficacy, no validation in failed language, false modalities, they try to keep the language alive, just focus on what happens to our bodies, help us survive, open the gates, the language still thrives in concepts renamed, open the gates, give us more answers, more pathways, open the gates, stop the gate-keeping, just stop the gate-keeping

(its) enough just to let go, held close so we don't go - where no one knows if what's safe is near

enough just to let go, stay close so I don't go - where no one knows the hurt I felt

enough just to let go, so still and they won't know -

(because) when there are no words
Track Name: the cost and the loss
there are victims everywhere
reaching out for someone in this mess
your daughter is lost this morning
turned blue on that bench
people just walked by

the wars the sick fight every day
the wars against the poor
addiction the disease and its killing fields
lost limbs and lost lives
the cost and the loss

/// it's not her fault / this is crisis / do no harm and so on / look her in the eyes / that was your cousin / why are you laughing? / just say hello / say you care / to help not hinder / wayward compassion fatigue / the burnout of the sick and the ailing ///

laid out, left behind
laid out, gone too soon